Thoughts From a Thirsty Heart!

As I scrambled through my journal to find a piece that I was working on I stumbled on a piece about 2010. The first part I wrote in January 2010 and the last part I wrote in December 2010. I pray that you enjoy my thoughts.

The year 2010 is about solutions not trying to better myself but instead it is about being me. It is about growing apart from my past and looking ahead into the future. First things first I am a sinner. But I am made clean through the blood and pain that Christ endured for me and you. I am not Holy-er than anyone else; I am definitely not perfect. That is why this year is not a better myself but about being myself. I am leaving the past behind. My solution is to stop judging, and the continuous hurt that I bring upon others.

2010 is almost over, but Gods promises are here to stay. I can honestly say that with Christ I overcame huge obstacles that life threw at me. It is (and always will be) by the Grace of God that I have been saved and made new. Thank you Jesus for a beautiful year, and all you have been giving me, I am truly blessed! I love you Father!

I Promise To Be Special!

As I sit in front of my computer screen thoughts of old memories flood my brain. It is impossible to pick just one childhood memory to tell you. So I sit and waiting for the perfect one to share. What could I possible say? I could tell you the story of my first day in the first grade, or maybe the time I went to Disneyland and got a Christmas Eeyore doll. I have got it!

It happened on September 27^th, 1990 when I was in the hospital trying so hard to gain freedom. I was screaming for a chance of life. Finally I came out and breathe the sweet smell of air. I cried and cried and cried some more until the doctors put me with my mom. She is so beautiful when she talked to me in her sweet loving voice. As my dad trampled over a name for me I knew God gave me a good family. I meant my siblings when I woke up from a nap. They were friendly until I burped all over them. As my dad exclaimed “Avonlea Helen, That’s it!” I smiled from both corners of my mouth knowing that I belonged into the Schemmer family. As years went by I declared a sense of independence. I gained friends, more family members, hope, and knowledge.

Let’s fast forward twenty years. A few weeks ago, right after my twentieth birthday, my mom gave me something special. She asked me to make a promise to her. As I wondered what it was I gladly accepted and told her that I will keep the promise and assured her that she could trust me with her whole life. She handed me this paper with little feet pin attached to it. I read the bold printed words Precious Feet curious to know what it was. “Promise to pass this onto to your child someday?” “Yes mommy! I promise” echoed out of my mouth. So why is this so important? I will tell you why. It opens up and describes each milestone throughout pregnancy. My mom began to explain how I was compared to what it read. She told me you are special, my sunshine.

I began to sit and ponder. Am I special because my mom tells me or am I really special? Every human deserves the chance to live, to be special. Genesis 1:27 “So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. “ Wow, God made every person special. We have the honor to be created just like Him. Our Heavenly Father breathed life into you. That is special. We are alive today because He created us. I feel special when I read these truth words because I know that He gave me life.

Remember you are special. And no one can that away from you.

Learning Every Day!

Our time on Earth is very limited. It could end today, next week or maybe even fifty years from now. It depends on what God has planned for you. That is why I decided to take every day as a learning experience.


Matthew 6:34
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the times comes.”


Life may be hard, confusing, and fun all at the same time but ALWAYS remember that God is holding your hand. This semester threw a lot at me, and I could not have done it without God. He held my hand through every test, class, and anything else you could imagine. Matthew 6:34 is one of my life verses. I pray that you cling on to the promise that God has given to us, and learn from every experience.

Really Saying Good-ByeAnd Moving On!

It has been about a year and a few months that I have on and off been giving my life to a certain sin. I have confessed my sin to Christ, time and time again but still end up falling right back where I was: Square one. A dark and scary place filled with lies from the deceptive and cries from those who live there. I was chained to my own desires, my thoughts literally destroyed me, and the world around me fell apart like a rocket out of the sky. I am not writing this to codemn but to share and be real with all my readers. You see when I was not reading my Bible and praying, I became lost. My pure thoughts turned into unpure thoughts and began the process of ripping me apart. I was imprisoned into a life of sin until I took my life seriously.

So now I say good-bye to my sin and hello to an abudant life that God has promised me. I say hello to a life worth living and good-bye to the silver chains that consumed me for sooo long. To be honest I am glad that it is over. I do not have to worry because I trust in the Lord with all of my heart, mind, and soul. I will not have to worry about "fitting in" or saying the right thing. The road to freedom is paid for all those who accept Jesus Chrsit as their One and Only Savior. I am ready to take my punder and move on.

John 8:32 says
"The you will know the TRUTH, and the TRUTH will set you free."

The Perfect Child!

Do you ever feel that you have to be perfect in everything you do to satisfy your parents? Truth to the matter is there is and only will be one perfect child. Jesus Christ was created perfectly in Mary’s womb and served the world with completely perfectness. He is a role model on how our lives should be displayed. Yes, we will never be perfect like Jesus is but we can chose not to sin. Another remarkable gift that God offers to every willing heart is forgiveness.

1 John 1:9
“If we confess our sins to him, he is faithful
and just forgive us and to cleanse us from every wrong.”

I know that I will never be perfect but it gives me such great encouragement knowing that my Father forgives every wrong that I do if I confess it before Him. The last thing we need to remember is that God still declares us as His children. I do not know about you but I just want to scream on the rooftops that He is my father. He loves me, all of me. Every bone in my body, every hair on my head, and every step I take is loved by my Heavenly Father.

Let’s recap: we may not be perfect but we can chose not to sin, if we do sin and confess it then we will be forgiven, and most importantly God is our Father and we are our His children.

Dear Abba,
I pray for all of those who are struggling with sin. Lord, that you will take it all away and wipe it white as snow when they confess to you. Let those who love you be comforted by your perfect love. That we will be able to do your will and guide our every move. And Lord anyone who does not believe in you, stir their hearts and open their eyes. Thank you Father for the life you have given me.
We ask in your glorious name
Amen!

A child and a dreamer today, a follower tomorrow

I have recently thought about my childhood. Pictures of water covering my feet in the early months of summer to the rain pouring down on me after dance class come to my head when I revisit the early years of my life. Let’s go back in time for a while. I grew up into a child dreamer. I decided to make this post about my childhood dreams, at least my top ten.
1) I dreamt to be married one day.
When I was five I decided that I was going to marry “my Prince Eric” from Little Mermaid. He was handsome, free, and just amazing. I loved pretending that one day I would meet him and dreamed every word out of his mouth to me. I was obsessed over the fact that one night it would be my turn to be beautiful.
2) I dreamt to be a mommy.
Oh how my desire to be a mommy burned inside of me. It was my passion to raise kids and I was glad when my mom gave me three younger siblings. I would watch her every move and be amazed how she made it look so easy. I had cabbage patch kids named, taken care of, and ready for life every day. I was so proud of myself when I started babysitting.
3) I dreamt to change the world with the power of Christ’s love.
I was baptized, committed my life, and ready to change the world when I was ten years old. I would dream of how God would use my life to bring glory to the kingdom.
4) I dreamt to be a Kindergarten teacher.
Since I am patient with children five and under I want to be a kindergarten teacher. It seems like the best job on this planet.
5) I dreamt to be a mermaid.
I love mermaids but do not believe them.
6) I dreamt to work for Disney.
Whether it is a parade or a show, I have always been interested in Disney. They inspire me to try harder. It brought back a sense of comfort and a warm blanket of encouragement. I love Disney!
7) I dreamt to travel the world.
I want to go to China, Africa, South America, and New York. I want to see things outside of my zone. I know God created this Earth beautifully and I want to see it.
8) I dreamt to have my own tree house.
It seems like every child has a tree house. I still until this day want a tree house, a place of my own to pray, worship, and to be by myself.
9) I dreamt to be the best I can be.
My parents raised me to be one that strives. I live for a challenge and ask for no reward. I do things to the best and the even beyond. My family was founded on the principle of doing the absolute best in every situation.
10) I dreamt to take naps for the rest of my life.
I enjoy naps, especially on Sundays.

You see I have dreams from my childhood that still stick to me. Everything is possible with God. He will be able to fulfill your heart. Trust in the Lord because He has BIG things in store for you. Your Heavenly Father wants you to be happy; He yearns for His children happiness. Follow Him in all areas of your life not just today but your whole life.
Matthew 25:21
“Come and share your master’s happiness!”

Colossians 2:10
“And you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority.”

The Edge of Your Seat!

Willingness of your heart, mind, and soul has been an amazing concept when fully grasped and understood. Have you ever had one of those moments where God was pulling your heart but you did not understand until the light bulb finally shinned above your head? That happened to me a few weeks ago in church. The subject was on the road less traveled, it is from Crossroad’s The Heart of Summer series.

I figured it out what God has been saying all along, it is the willingness to have a relationship with Christ. Let’s say you accept Jesus as your Savior, your relationship will be as strong as your willingness towards the relationship.

1 Timothy 2:3-4 (New Living Translation)
“This is good and pleases God our Savior, who wants everyone to be saved and to understand the truth.”

God wants EVERYONE in the whole entire world to be willing to choose Him as their personal Lord and Savior, accepting the truth, being ready to be freed by the Holy Spirit, sharing His love, and denying oneself on a daily basis.
How to be willing!

1) Accept Him as your personal Lord and Savior declaring it to the world.
Matthew 28:19 “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit.”

2) Accept the truth
John 3:16-17 “For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.”

3) Being ready to be freed by the Holy Spirit
John 8:32 “then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

4) Sharing His love
1 John 3:16 “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”

5) Denying oneself on a daily basis
Matthew 10:38 “And anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.”

So I ask you this: are you willing to be at the edge of your seat ready to be a follower for Christ? I pray that everyone who reads this will be willing to open their heart towards God.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I pray that those who read my blog will be inspired
to live the life you have planned for them. Help me and those reading this to be more willing to live for you. Let us see the truth and obey what you have planned for us. Lord, I pray for those who may not know you, help them to see that you are the way, the truth, and the life and through you they will not have to live in bondage. Thank you Abba, for your everlasting love.
I ask this in your name,
Amen