Finding Myself.

I find myself running through a forest of colorful thoughts to find out who I am. I overlook these thoughts and just continue to be me. I am Avonlea Helen Schemmer. I am proud of who I am and what I am becoming. I am a woman of God saying NO to the world. I am a loving, caring and compassionate person for others. I was brought into this world by two remarkable parents surrounded by success and hope for the future. I am human and yes I go through struggles. But what makes me different is I know that God will help me through the struggles and I know He loves me more than anything. I have been through some bad and good times but most of all whatever I went through God helped me through it all. I live with seven other people and a dog, which I adore and care about deeply. I have my strengths and my weakness. I smile a lot because God gave me lips to form a smile. I like to wonder and think a lot about things that wouldn’t make since to others. I am student not just in school but in life. I love learning new things everyday any day. I have been on this Earth as much as all my fingers plus nine of my toes. I have learned that the world isn’t very nice but you can’t play the revenge game otherwise you will just end up getting burned. So I just let the world see my smile and joy for Jesus. Money has no valve to me. Family is thee most important thing to me on this planet. They help shape me for the battle that I will encounter. They aren’t just blood related. God has granted me with a family who supports me and friends who love me for who I am. I love to sing to glorify the Kingdom. Music runs in my family so I want to pass it down to my future family. I want to be able to go camping, to have a tire swing in my front yard, learn how to swim and whistle and help kids in Africa that have malnutrition diseases. I can’t imagine life without the people who I traveled this journey with because God put every single one in my life for a reason. Responsibility is a characteristic that I encounter. Yellow makes me smile because of a yellow bunny named Sunshine in my childhood. My baby song is you are my sunshine…because literally I am my parents’ sunshine. I love to write because it helps me cope with situations. I have come to the conclusion that giraffes are my favorite animals. Dancing is one of my hobbies. I am an afternoon kind of gal. I got a lot to tell you but I would rather listen and just give advice. I love little kids because they are all individuals. They make me smile. Reading my Bible makes me realize that I am special. Serving others isn’t a talent; it’s a gift from my heavenly Father. A lot of people do not know that my name rhythms with heavenly. I do not get upset very easily. I do not believe that dinosaurs ever existed. I wear a purity ring not to prove anything to anyone but to show my promise to God. I don’t wear makeup because God created me just the way I am. I love Eeyore even though I am happy all the time. If something is bothering me then I usually write a song about it. I want to be a kindergarten teacher when I grow up. Disneyland is my family’s stopping ground. I feel pretty when I paint my nails. I am in the process of finding my purpose that God has given me in the meantime I will wait with a smile on my face while loving others. I love living my life.

Enough is Enough!

I have had my days plenty of course where "enough is enough." Those days are just tests and trails to make me trip and fail down. I am so ready to shatter into little pieces but then I remember with Christ I can do all things. But have you ever thought enough is enough?

-enough with the hurt
-enough with the tears
-enough with being a slave to others
-enough with being spit on by peoples rude comments
-enough with it all

It’s not until I prayed to God and realized that something so deep in my life has been changed. I prayed that God would just get rid of all of these "enough is enough" days and put in a life of the simple and peaceful. I woke up from this nightmare to realize I am living in a dream…. Wait what a dream? Yes, a dream to serve Christ in what may be the worst conditions of my life but it’s what I remember that makes it deep. Jesus endured the worst of worst conditions possible. He woke up to a world where He was the sacrifice. Where no matter what His "enough is enough" days were just simply too much but it was the sacrifice and purpose that made Him to persist on and not shatter. It was the love that He has for us. It is a dream to serve Christ in a nightmare (the world) but if you let others see the dream then their lives will be changed.

So bring it on!
-Thank you for the hurt because now I will be stronger.
- Thank you for the tears because now I have something to cry about.
-Thank you for making me feels like I am a slave to others because now I serve the kingdom with glory.
-Thank you for the spit from the world’s comments because now I know how to cope with it. My secret weapon love!

So when "enough is enough" to you just remember that Jesus took enough and some more but that didn’t stop Him. In fact until the day of His death on the cross He was serving by loving others and when He came back He loved those who denied Him. So don’t give up because you think "enough is enough." Be inspired by Jesus and live your dream.