I Promise To Be Special!

As I sit in front of my computer screen thoughts of old memories flood my brain. It is impossible to pick just one childhood memory to tell you. So I sit and waiting for the perfect one to share. What could I possible say? I could tell you the story of my first day in the first grade, or maybe the time I went to Disneyland and got a Christmas Eeyore doll. I have got it!

It happened on September 27^th, 1990 when I was in the hospital trying so hard to gain freedom. I was screaming for a chance of life. Finally I came out and breathe the sweet smell of air. I cried and cried and cried some more until the doctors put me with my mom. She is so beautiful when she talked to me in her sweet loving voice. As my dad trampled over a name for me I knew God gave me a good family. I meant my siblings when I woke up from a nap. They were friendly until I burped all over them. As my dad exclaimed “Avonlea Helen, That’s it!” I smiled from both corners of my mouth knowing that I belonged into the Schemmer family. As years went by I declared a sense of independence. I gained friends, more family members, hope, and knowledge.

Let’s fast forward twenty years. A few weeks ago, right after my twentieth birthday, my mom gave me something special. She asked me to make a promise to her. As I wondered what it was I gladly accepted and told her that I will keep the promise and assured her that she could trust me with her whole life. She handed me this paper with little feet pin attached to it. I read the bold printed words Precious Feet curious to know what it was. “Promise to pass this onto to your child someday?” “Yes mommy! I promise” echoed out of my mouth. So why is this so important? I will tell you why. It opens up and describes each milestone throughout pregnancy. My mom began to explain how I was compared to what it read. She told me you are special, my sunshine.

I began to sit and ponder. Am I special because my mom tells me or am I really special? Every human deserves the chance to live, to be special. Genesis 1:27 “So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. “ Wow, God made every person special. We have the honor to be created just like Him. Our Heavenly Father breathed life into you. That is special. We are alive today because He created us. I feel special when I read these truth words because I know that He gave me life.

Remember you are special. And no one can that away from you.

Learning Every Day!

Our time on Earth is very limited. It could end today, next week or maybe even fifty years from now. It depends on what God has planned for you. That is why I decided to take every day as a learning experience.


Matthew 6:34
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the times comes.”


Life may be hard, confusing, and fun all at the same time but ALWAYS remember that God is holding your hand. This semester threw a lot at me, and I could not have done it without God. He held my hand through every test, class, and anything else you could imagine. Matthew 6:34 is one of my life verses. I pray that you cling on to the promise that God has given to us, and learn from every experience.

Really Saying Good-ByeAnd Moving On!

It has been about a year and a few months that I have on and off been giving my life to a certain sin. I have confessed my sin to Christ, time and time again but still end up falling right back where I was: Square one. A dark and scary place filled with lies from the deceptive and cries from those who live there. I was chained to my own desires, my thoughts literally destroyed me, and the world around me fell apart like a rocket out of the sky. I am not writing this to codemn but to share and be real with all my readers. You see when I was not reading my Bible and praying, I became lost. My pure thoughts turned into unpure thoughts and began the process of ripping me apart. I was imprisoned into a life of sin until I took my life seriously.

So now I say good-bye to my sin and hello to an abudant life that God has promised me. I say hello to a life worth living and good-bye to the silver chains that consumed me for sooo long. To be honest I am glad that it is over. I do not have to worry because I trust in the Lord with all of my heart, mind, and soul. I will not have to worry about "fitting in" or saying the right thing. The road to freedom is paid for all those who accept Jesus Chrsit as their One and Only Savior. I am ready to take my punder and move on.

John 8:32 says
"The you will know the TRUTH, and the TRUTH will set you free."

The Perfect Child!

Do you ever feel that you have to be perfect in everything you do to satisfy your parents? Truth to the matter is there is and only will be one perfect child. Jesus Christ was created perfectly in Mary’s womb and served the world with completely perfectness. He is a role model on how our lives should be displayed. Yes, we will never be perfect like Jesus is but we can chose not to sin. Another remarkable gift that God offers to every willing heart is forgiveness.

1 John 1:9
“If we confess our sins to him, he is faithful
and just forgive us and to cleanse us from every wrong.”

I know that I will never be perfect but it gives me such great encouragement knowing that my Father forgives every wrong that I do if I confess it before Him. The last thing we need to remember is that God still declares us as His children. I do not know about you but I just want to scream on the rooftops that He is my father. He loves me, all of me. Every bone in my body, every hair on my head, and every step I take is loved by my Heavenly Father.

Let’s recap: we may not be perfect but we can chose not to sin, if we do sin and confess it then we will be forgiven, and most importantly God is our Father and we are our His children.

Dear Abba,
I pray for all of those who are struggling with sin. Lord, that you will take it all away and wipe it white as snow when they confess to you. Let those who love you be comforted by your perfect love. That we will be able to do your will and guide our every move. And Lord anyone who does not believe in you, stir their hearts and open their eyes. Thank you Father for the life you have given me.
We ask in your glorious name
Amen!

A child and a dreamer today, a follower tomorrow

I have recently thought about my childhood. Pictures of water covering my feet in the early months of summer to the rain pouring down on me after dance class come to my head when I revisit the early years of my life. Let’s go back in time for a while. I grew up into a child dreamer. I decided to make this post about my childhood dreams, at least my top ten.
1) I dreamt to be married one day.
When I was five I decided that I was going to marry “my Prince Eric” from Little Mermaid. He was handsome, free, and just amazing. I loved pretending that one day I would meet him and dreamed every word out of his mouth to me. I was obsessed over the fact that one night it would be my turn to be beautiful.
2) I dreamt to be a mommy.
Oh how my desire to be a mommy burned inside of me. It was my passion to raise kids and I was glad when my mom gave me three younger siblings. I would watch her every move and be amazed how she made it look so easy. I had cabbage patch kids named, taken care of, and ready for life every day. I was so proud of myself when I started babysitting.
3) I dreamt to change the world with the power of Christ’s love.
I was baptized, committed my life, and ready to change the world when I was ten years old. I would dream of how God would use my life to bring glory to the kingdom.
4) I dreamt to be a Kindergarten teacher.
Since I am patient with children five and under I want to be a kindergarten teacher. It seems like the best job on this planet.
5) I dreamt to be a mermaid.
I love mermaids but do not believe them.
6) I dreamt to work for Disney.
Whether it is a parade or a show, I have always been interested in Disney. They inspire me to try harder. It brought back a sense of comfort and a warm blanket of encouragement. I love Disney!
7) I dreamt to travel the world.
I want to go to China, Africa, South America, and New York. I want to see things outside of my zone. I know God created this Earth beautifully and I want to see it.
8) I dreamt to have my own tree house.
It seems like every child has a tree house. I still until this day want a tree house, a place of my own to pray, worship, and to be by myself.
9) I dreamt to be the best I can be.
My parents raised me to be one that strives. I live for a challenge and ask for no reward. I do things to the best and the even beyond. My family was founded on the principle of doing the absolute best in every situation.
10) I dreamt to take naps for the rest of my life.
I enjoy naps, especially on Sundays.

You see I have dreams from my childhood that still stick to me. Everything is possible with God. He will be able to fulfill your heart. Trust in the Lord because He has BIG things in store for you. Your Heavenly Father wants you to be happy; He yearns for His children happiness. Follow Him in all areas of your life not just today but your whole life.
Matthew 25:21
“Come and share your master’s happiness!”

Colossians 2:10
“And you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority.”

The Edge of Your Seat!

Willingness of your heart, mind, and soul has been an amazing concept when fully grasped and understood. Have you ever had one of those moments where God was pulling your heart but you did not understand until the light bulb finally shinned above your head? That happened to me a few weeks ago in church. The subject was on the road less traveled, it is from Crossroad’s The Heart of Summer series.

I figured it out what God has been saying all along, it is the willingness to have a relationship with Christ. Let’s say you accept Jesus as your Savior, your relationship will be as strong as your willingness towards the relationship.

1 Timothy 2:3-4 (New Living Translation)
“This is good and pleases God our Savior, who wants everyone to be saved and to understand the truth.”

God wants EVERYONE in the whole entire world to be willing to choose Him as their personal Lord and Savior, accepting the truth, being ready to be freed by the Holy Spirit, sharing His love, and denying oneself on a daily basis.
How to be willing!

1) Accept Him as your personal Lord and Savior declaring it to the world.
Matthew 28:19 “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit.”

2) Accept the truth
John 3:16-17 “For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.”

3) Being ready to be freed by the Holy Spirit
John 8:32 “then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

4) Sharing His love
1 John 3:16 “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”

5) Denying oneself on a daily basis
Matthew 10:38 “And anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.”

So I ask you this: are you willing to be at the edge of your seat ready to be a follower for Christ? I pray that everyone who reads this will be willing to open their heart towards God.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I pray that those who read my blog will be inspired
to live the life you have planned for them. Help me and those reading this to be more willing to live for you. Let us see the truth and obey what you have planned for us. Lord, I pray for those who may not know you, help them to see that you are the way, the truth, and the life and through you they will not have to live in bondage. Thank you Abba, for your everlasting love.
I ask this in your name,
Amen

The Compassionate Heart!

A lesson in compassion really hit me hard the other day. I use to think I was very compassionate but my heart told me a whole different story. You see when I was younger I forgave everyone but as I grew up I lost that. I became very angry and bitter towards the world and everyone in it. In high school, my senior year, things changed for me. I became “on track” with God and His plan for my life but something was always missing. I was reading Beth Moore’s book called Breaking Free and learned that I was living with captivity. Forgiveness!

I thought that just by forgetting about the hurt that others put upon me was enough to be called forgiveness. I was wrong. I could have been lived in freedom all these years but I chose to be strangled by my captivity.

Here is what I did to be set free.
1) Think of all the people that I hurt and that hurt me
2) Pray that I would be forgiven for my actions towards these people and I also prayed that I would have the strength to forgive these people.
3) I told these people that I am sorry and truly meant it. I also told them about my life changing experience. To the people who hurt me I told them that I forgive them for everything.
4) I accepted my past and now I live in my future, an abundant life with my Abba.

Being compassionate is a hard thing to do on your own. Remember that God, the Father of His children will hold your hand through it all. I know He will. Ask, seek, and forgive.

Ephesians 4:32
“Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

Hollywood Part 3: Devotional

Hollywood Part 3: Devotional

“I am the way, the truth, and the life.” John 14:6

These are the wonderful words I saw written on the page of my devotional before I embarked on a journey to Hollywood. What a beautiful comfort I received. God did not just stop there, He continues to show how beautifully comforting He is. As we were driving I looked out the glass window to discover something so amazing. On the building it said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” I told my dad of how magnificent it was to see how much God was truly comforting me. I was in awe.

GOD IS THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE!

I know that God is the way, the truth, and the life. The only way to truly live is to have a relationship with our Heavenly Father. I pray that more people open their hearts to this incredible testament of life. God will comfort you, where ever you go. You are His sheep and He is the Shepherd.

The way: He wants ALL of His children to be in Heaven with Him. To attain this we need to ask God into our hearts and ask for salvation. He will give it to you just believe, follow, and live love out loud.

The truth: God sent His son to Earth to save us. Out of love He saved us from sin. He sent His one and only son to pay the ultimate price so that we might live. Truth be told; Heaven is waiting for us. Anyone who does not accept Christ Jesus will be sent to Hell. Start a relationship with Jesus; after all He is the truth.
The life: Live love out loud. When we live out our love just as Jesus did for us, we develop the ultimate life. We live an abundant life with an outstanding Father holding our hand.

1 John 3:16
“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”

Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life.

Hollywood (Part 2)- Conquering my fears

Hollywood (Part 2)
Conquering my fears

Confession: I am fearful of a lot of things. I was able to conquer two of my fears this week. Glass elevators and bridges!

I have been afraid of elevators since I was a little girl. If I ride them then I always hold on. This time was different. My dad and I went into a glass elevator. At first, when I went on I was terrified. I prayed to my Heavenly Father before I got in. I was comforted in the midst of this scary event that was taken place. He did not leave me.

After the elevator we went on the bridge that crosses between buildings. It had a lot of cracks in it. So again I was comforted when I crossed the bridge.
What made me be able to cross the bridge and get on an elevator? Answer: the comfort of God. He never left me.

No matter what you are going through, whether it be facing your fear or even in a struggle God is always here. I recognized how much He loves me for helping in something that I thought was huge. I know that God is holding my hand through every day that have lived and will live. Take a few moments today to truly think about how God has been there for you.

Joshua 1:9
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Isaiah 41:10
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

Hollywood Part One-Homeless

Hollywood (Part 1)

On July 7th, 2010 my dad and I went to Hollywood. While we were there I realized three major important things that God was telling me. I was in awe with the first one.

Homelessness is a huge problem. Everywhere we went there were people who did not have a home. It broke my heart and I started to realize how blessed I am. I have been taking my house for granted. Let’s look at the back story before I am able to fully explain myself.

My family moved from house to house to house. I did not realize that God gave my family the chance to have a home. Yet I have complained about every single house. I feel awful for complaining. It was always “why do I have to share my room? Or the bathroom is just too small.” I should have been saying “Yay! I get time to get to know my sister better. Or thank you God for providing my family with a bathroom.” See when I took the chance to realize what great things God was doing in my life, I was able to see His blessings for me.

Jeremiah 33:3
“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.”

I love this verse. It touched me the very first time I read it. My heart has been heavy until I heard this verse. I love how the Creator of the universe wants to answer me. I am going to be praying for the homeless population, not just in Hollywood, and I know God will do big things.

Dear Father,
I pray that you will hear my cry for the homeless population. It breaks my heart to see so many people without a house and without you Lord. Please continue to do big things in their lives. Thank you, Jesus for my home.
I love you Abba!
Amen

I look to YAHWEH!

I have something that have been keeping secretly in my heart and leaving a sense of pain. I need to confess about an issue in my life. I was blind to my ignorance and thought this world was created for me. I am indeed selfish and very dishonest with myself. I have heard all the lies before and actually bought into them. I was watching a romance movie the other night and could not help but wonder what God has planned for me. Boy, I was wrong.

I should have corrected myself and thought about what God is doing for me. As a declaration to this great day, I have to come out and say that today is about the freedom God gave you and me. It is an honor to be on this Earth serving my Abba. It is an honor to be breathing and having a glorious life that is often taken grant for. God gave this day to you and me. He fought and endured the worst kinds of pains for me and you. So I will correct myself. God has been doing remarkable miracles in my life.

1. He has healed my sister, Jayden. I have never taken the time to praise God for this miracle. My sister has been battling Leukemia for a few years but now she is living abundantly thanks to Jesus.

2. Jesus has given me an opportunity to learn about Him with an amazing group of women. My mom and I go to the women’s Bible study. I am blessed to spend time with my mom while learning more about ourselves and digging deep into a time of study with our Father.

3. I have theeeeee most amazing and spectacular family in the whole wide world. I am blessed to have a family who loves and accepts me but more than that have dedicated their lives to Christ. I am thankful for the church family that I have. I am honored to have met my brothers and sisters in Christ and then to have a relationship with them.

Those are just some examples of what God is doing my life. He is blessings me abundantly and I praise Him for He is mighty. I do not have to worry about who I will be with, how I make money for my family, or even if I will become something great. I have God and that is all I need. After all if He can fight for my freedom then He will give me peace about my future.

I will look to Yahweh forever, today and tomorrow with arms opened wide. I receive joy and love today because of a compassionate Father to His daughter.

Matthew 6:34
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the times come. “

Today when you remember what the red, white, and blue also remember what God did for you. Trust that He will never leave you, thank Him every day, and have a relationship with your Father.

Proverbs 3:5
“Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight.”

Today and everyday, I will live in freedom because of a loving Father.

Live Love Out Loud!

Unmasked!

During my four years in high school, I had a secret. Here it is: I was mad at God.

My first year at Norco High School, I joined marching band to follow in my siblings footsteps. I was very involved and helped every time it was needed. I loved my life…..until the day I found out my mom had colon cancer.I was heartbroken. I wept and wept so more. I was angry and upset that everything good in my life had turned to dust in just seconds. I remember sitting in my room wishing and hoping that my life would be a fairytale. It did not happen.

My junior year in high school and I got more bad news. My best friend/sister was diagnosed with Leukemia. I just could not handle it anymore. I did not want to show any emotions to anyone so I put on a fake face pretending everything was okay. I asked myself, “why her? Can I take my sisters place?” I wept more than ever realizing that every day is a blessing.

Early this year, 2010, I stopped being fake. I saw my life being used incredible ways by God. I was not mad anymore. Around the end of February my sister got super sick again on top of having Leukemia. I knew what I had to do. PRAY! I remember sitting on the floor next to my sister, who was lying on the couch, and I looked at her remembering our childhood together. Tears began to fill my eyes because out of a leap of faith I asked her if we could pray together. I took her hands in mine and prayed. I knew God heard every word because He used my sister in amazing ways. I am not two faced anymore.

Joseph was sold into slavery by his own flesh and blood but he had something I did not. Joseph had the compassion towards his brothers and hope for a better tomorrow. Instead I was focusing on the negative and not trusting God. When I began to trust God and His plan for me I found that my tears became joyful and thankful tears. I have a confession: I am living Gods plan for my life. I take off my mask and leave at your feet, Oh Lord! Take me as I surrender to you.

Proverbs 3:5
“Trust in the Lord with ALL you heart and lean not on your understanding.”

Just Believe!

I have a man in my life who displays Christ-like attitude every day. The quality that I want to write about is never giving up on me. My dad has never given up on me. He has always supported me through my hard years, my school years. The education system has not been the best to me but my dad has always believed in me. There were times that I wanted to give up and then I pictured my dad. I quickly remember how he believes in me and is so proud of me. When I was younger I remember going to a dance with my daddy to help set up lights and he told me he was so proud of me. And just a few weeks ago he shared with me how he was proud of me for doing excellent in school. Its memories like that where I cry because I know he won’t give up on me.

Also Christ did the same thing for me. He never gave up on me. He knows exactly what I will become and wants the best for me. I get to see my Heavenly father and my earthly father for eternity and I could not ask for more. To the men in my life thank you for always believing in me. I love you! Happy Father’s Day! You deserve the best.

Are we clothed or naked?

What is a part of your daily routine? Is it getting breakfast, getting dressed then battling traffic on the way to work? Or are we looking in the mirror with empty thoughts about the day wishing for a way out of life? Or do you wake up with God at your bedside ready to conquer the day with love for the world? Some may think that it is impossible to accomplish option three but it really is not.

Here is the secret: reading the Word. I have no place to judge because I am human and do not always read my Bible on a daily basis. When I do read my day seems so much better. It is my strength and courage. But best yet it is like having God holding your hand through the day. You would not wake up in the morning and not get dressed for the day but yet we typically don’t read our Bibles when it’s the same concept. We have the honor and privilege to display His love through our clothes.
I will repeat myself; reading the Bible is like our clothes. It is related because you have the honor to read the Living Word and clothe yourself with Gods unconditional love.

You have a choice to make for yourself; are you going to walk around naked for everyone to see or will you show the world that you are clothed with the life and promise that God has given you? The choice is yours.

“Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.”
Psalm 119:105

My prayer for the world!

Why do we struggle with the things of the world when we are not apart of the world? Lead by example and follow God, not this temporary place we call Earth.
God will help us through our struggles,doubts, hurts, and pain but only if we want it.
Live your life out loud for God and only Him.
He will give comfort you in this strom just give Him your hand.
Surrender the things of the world and gain a heart after God.
Learn to be patient and respect everyone for you may not be aware of what they may be going through.
A human is a human no matter what size, shape, or appearance.
Life is valuable and fragile so handle with care even if it is not your life.
This is my prayer for the world. Amen!

Abortion kills, My mom saved me!

I want to take time out of my life to appreciate my mom. Happy Mother’s day! My mom gave me life nineteen years ago. She endured pain beyond belief and yet she still had me. My mom is a hero….literally. The doctor told her that it would be wise if she would just abort me. Out of courage and unconditional love my mom gave me a second chance. I am very appreciative to her decision.

Abortion is an ugly issue that should not continue to happen but it does. Humans think they have a right to kill the baby inside them but YOU DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT. Everyone in this world was created for a purpose and you are stopping a human that is great a short life. I am one to say that I am honored my mom kept me and did not think about even consider aborting me. God made adoption centers for a reason but yet we would rather kill this innocent child. Do we even understand how great this baby can be? No, out of selfish reasons we destroy just like how society teaches us. We need to stand up and let others know that there is no shame for having a baby. Wake up America, abortion survivors’ live amazing lives. Do not give into the world because they think it is right. Abortion is a choice that does not just affect you but it touches the life of the baby. You can never get back your child. Again, I will repeat myself: you will never get back your child. I live a happy, healthy life ready to change the world by letting people know that God loves them.

Thank you Mommy! You gave me the privilege to live life. You give me everything I need to be successful, you constantly love me especially when I do not deserve it, and you are a wonderful mom. I am honored to be your daughter. I love you!!!!!!

Be Beautiful- Part 4

Dating! A hard topic to talk about. I must admit that I have a huge problem with dating. Girls and guys want to feel something more when they date. They want to feel beautiful, loved and cared for by the opposite sex. I have this so-called “dating to feel beautiful syndrome” and many other people in the world have it too. I thought that having a boyfriend would make me more attractive and wanted by guys. I was WRONG! Dating does nothing but puts a temporary band aid on an unsolved problem. You end up wishing that you can feel more beautiful to get other guys. While you are at it you hurt others and get hurt by others. It’s a vicious cycle that is never ending.

I have learned that you do not have to date to feel beautiful. God made you beautiful.

Genesis 1:27
“So God created man in his own image,
In the image of God he created him;
Male and female he created them.”

How do we know that we are beautiful? God created you in His image. Wow, I reread this verse. I am in awe that God so big would create me and then create me beautiful. What? Yes, it is true. Look around, we are beautiful. Do not let a guy or girl make you think otherwise.

Truth: God made you in His image.
Lie: Beauty depends on dating.
Truth: You are beautiful.
Lie: The world thinks dating determines your beauty and you shall follow the world.
Truth: Beauty is WHO you are for God created you.

By understanding the truth, you will be able to feel beautiful. No one is ugly. My Father in Heaven thinks we ALL are beautiful. Live by the truth not by the world.

Remember you are BEAUTIFUL!

Be beautiful
The truth behind tattoos and piercings is a beautiful thing. Quick confession before I explain what I mean. I have always wanted both a tattoo and my ears pierced. Okay I am glad that I got that off my chest. Here it goes, plain and simple, tattoos and piercings alter Gods perfect image. I understand they look cool and side note I am not saying you should not get one. Tattoos and piercings are a huge debatable topic. They say something about whether it is positive or negative. Be wise in your decision, for it might be there longer than you think.

For something amazing happened when tattoo and piercings became part of a lifestyle. Think about this, close your eyes if you have to, now think of a man who only did good because He was perfect. Now think about what He did for you. Yes, you! Jesus was pierced three times; three nails attached Him to a piece of wood. Now we when we get saved we get a tattoo in our hearts. It says “I love you and I will never forsake you.” Jesus is tattooed on our hearts and stays with us. I love how inspirational this is. Through His three piercings we are able to get tattooed. The very best tattoo may I add. God knows your heart and knows if you have accepted the tattoo of Jesus to save yourself from sin. Accept the way that God made you, for He made you perfect. Remember that the tattoo of life is a beautiful thing.

Jesus made you,BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

BE BEAUTIFUL! (part 2)

Mirror, mirror on the wall how much weight do I have to lose after all? The mirror can be and is to many a self-confidence crusher. I want to tell you that it does not have to be a judging advice or a hurtful tool. It is all about what you see and the truth.

This week a random occurrence came about when I was at school. I was sitting by myself at a picnic table under the beautiful sky that God created that day. I was patiently waiting for my friends while I was finishing up some homework and eating my lunch before my next class. When a man dressed very professional came up to me I knew change was involved. He told me about this great offer an exercise company has for students at my particular college. It includes a coupon to get yoga classes and facials. I was very silent when I told the man that I was not interested even though I knew I was. I was in denial the rest of the day and continued the argument inside my head. I know that I am neither skinny nor overweight but I feel that I need to lose weight in order to feel good about myself. I constantly hear lies from the world. “Avonlea, please understand that you need to lose weight.” Or “Avonlea, are you serious? Look in the mirror you need to lose that fat around your waist!”

Now here is something everyone needs to hear. God made you perfect in His image. I love that. I know that I am going to have some harsh criticism about myself but ultimately God says I made you perfect. Wow! I do not need to lose weight or get yoga class in order to feel good about myself. I am able to stand in the mirror to declare that God did a perfect job! I know it is hard sometimes to feel beautiful but remember the most beautiful thing in the world is when you recognize His beauty. Now I am confident, beautiful and free.

Remember that God made you perfect in His image. You are BEAUTIFUL!

BE BEAUTIFUL!

What is beauty?

Society tells us that we need to dye our hair, wear makeup, get liposuction, and much more. Is that really how we want to spend our lives? I guess that is a matter of opinion. I believe that society is spreading one of the hugest lies in mankind. It takes away who we are as a person and we live out the lie. Self-image is a tough subject that everyone goes through because we are human. Why do we listen to society? Is it because the makeup makes you feel confident, or is it because our wallets do the talking for our hair upon the enormous amounts of dye? We end up caring so much what think society decides for beauty and destroy the person who we should be.

I want to touch on a heavy subject. Makeup! Every girl imagines waking up in the morning to put on her face. Wrong, this is one of the many lies society tells us. Girls, young ladies, and women of all ages are not accepted if they go the natural look. We get mocked and crushed for not hiding our flaws. Why should we? So what if I have a zit on my chin that looks like Mount Everest or have freckles. I think everyone, no matter who you are, is beautiful. Makeup has become the social norm because of the advertisers and money involved for these big businesses. Let me ask you something would you feel comfortable if all the makeup in the world never existed?

Jesus does not have makeup for He is natural. I will clarify Jesus did not hide anything. He knew what was going to happen and went through everything instead of lying to himself. He defined beauty by stepping out naturally. He did not cover His love for God but did the very opposite He told the world. Unmasked and exposed Jesus took the first step into beauty so let’s take the second and so on.

Remember that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

P.S My little sister made the image. She did an amazing job! Thank you sister! <3

Controlling my emotions!

I smile.
I laugh.
I cry.
I love.
I hurt.
I am human.

Today was an eye opening day for me. It was filled with all the things that I can not do. I have tons of emotions. How to control them? Blogging is my way on communicating my feelings. My feelings get in the way sometimes and that just sucks. I assure you that if you have the same problem, do not worry for Jesus can help you. Through Christ I am able to express myself because He already knows my heart. My emotions are always going to be judge by someone but God will never judge me.

I can smile.
I may laugh.
I will cry.
I try to love.
I do hurt.
I AM human AND God loves me!

Do not change who you are just because someone on this Earth judges you. Remember that in Gods perfect and unconditional love we are perfect for He created us in His image. Love yourself and most importantly love others.

About 6645 days of love!

My mom is not just a mom. She is a friend, a shoulder to cry on, a gift from above, and always there for me. My mom loves me more than anything and sometimes I do not thank her enough. That is why I am blogging about my mom today. By the way Mother’s Day does not have to be once a year. You may ask what makes my mom so much more special than anyone else’s mom. Here is the answer plain and simple; she loves me. It is tough being a mom of six children and knowing all the responsibilities it holds, not an easy job. Out of the 365 days a years, she loves me every single one. I have been a hard child to take care of for the past 19 almost 20 years but she has not ever once loved me less. Her love pours out like a fountain. I love the fact that I can talk to her. When I have a bad day she knows. I do not even have to say anything she just knows me. My mom is a miracle in my life! I am glad God that chose my mom to be mom. He did the very best job and He doesn’t make mistakes. My mom is not just a good mom, but only the best of the best. She did a great job raising me especially when times got tough. The most important thing that I have learned for my mom is life may be hard but God is always holding your hand through it. Thank you for mom! You work so hard for me even when I do not deserve it.

I love you always and forever!!!!!!!

My life has been like a staircase lately. I go up and down depending on my situation. I usually on a good day take about three steps up and then the next day about four steps down. Everything stresses me out. Spiritually I am not doing so well. I thought I was until my battle came. Sin is such a huge part of my life. It causes me to fail down the stairs of life. My life has been a terrible mess these past few weeks. Instead of sitting here doing nothing about I NEED to reach out to God.

Three goals to better my situation!
1) Be in constant communication with God.
-God wants you to tell Him EVERYTHING. It makes His day when you tell Him what happened during the day.
2) Be willing and accepting of every situation.
-Easier said than done most of the time. Point in case, life throws some rotten things at you when you least expect it. Be sure to praise God for the day and the situation that you are in. He will hold your hand through it.
3) Believe that God is bigger than any problem we have.
-God is in control. If we all took time out of our days to remind ourselves how big God is; I think we will live a healthier and more positive life. Stop stressing about the smallest problems just breath and give it to God. He will handle it and most importantly will never forsake you.

Remember that your life does not have to be a staircase. Think of life as a giraffe. You will be tall enough to reach Heaven and only going up. No more downs in life. Thank you Jesus for my beautiful life!

Something is NEVER nothing!

I need to tell you something,
but I cannot tell you today.
For I am too scared.
Just remember that
I need to tell you something.

I need to tell you something,
but you need to listen.
Just remember that
I need to tell you something.

"You're my best friend
and sometimes the only one.
I do not want to lose you
I can not let you go
because you're my
very best friend."

I need to tell you something
hope you're ready.

"I love you my best friend!"

For a friend...

I am praying for a friend
Who will be there ‘til thee end
Someone to talk to in the middle of night
When I just had a fight
I am praying for a friend.

I am waiting for a friend
Who will love me ‘til thee end
Someone to smile at
And we live by that
I am waiting for a friend

I am wishing for a friend
Who will care for me ‘til thee end
Someone who dances in the rain
And knows how to keep me sane
I am wishing for a friend.

I am missing you my friend
For I cannot wait ‘til we met again
Come back someday
Because I wishing you would stay
I am missing you my friend.

I want a friend
Who will stay ‘til thee end
I know you will come back
For the world gets attack
You will be here ‘til thee end
Thank you my friend!

An undeserving love story!

About a week ago, I got really emotional distressed. I thought my world was falling apart beneath my feet. I could not contain my tears and my family did not see me smile for a long time. Let me tell you what had happened in my life. On February 25th, 2010 I got "dumped" and kicked to the curb at least that is what it felt like. I was dating someone who I thought could complete the love story that I had in mind for my life. Boy, I was wrong. I will be open and honest here. I thought I was in "love" with a guy that took my heart from the very first time I laid eyes on him. We went on one date but that date was suppose to determine our future together. It did alright. If my parents are reading this I want to apologize in advance for not telling you everything. I feel really guilty about it. We kissed and I was glad he was my first kiss. He treated me with nothing but with respect for the next few weeks. I had some things going on in my life and he was there holding my hand through it. I once doubted that fairy tales really existed until I met the man of my dreams. We were really close and I am disappointed in myself for not continuing our closeness. I continue to ask God for a reason to this madness and I got the perfect answer. That is NOT my love story.

Here is my love story that God wrote for me. It does not start out with once upon a time but it is a true story that has changed the lives of others all across the world. It starts in a place known as Bethlehem where a virgin gave birth to my love story, Jesus. While He was on this earth, He was hated by many and they wanted Him dead. Jesus knew exactly what was going to happen but He did it anyways for me and you. That's right. Jesus carried a cross for miles and miles to go to a hill where death was written all over it. He loved us so much that He was mocked, put to shame, and took our sins as a sacrifice. My love story is beautiful, filled with compassion and love but most of all a gift from above. I love Jesus! He knows my heart and everything about me. Jesus is my love story!
Through the last week or so I have learned a few very important lessons with my current situation.
1) I need to tell my parents everything. I feel awful about not sharing this with my parents first. I am sorry!
2) Do not take a situation for granted. Praise Jesus for giving you another day to live.
3) Jesus will forever be my love story.
4) No matter what happens in this world, remember that a guy does not determine who you are. God already knows your heart. Trust in Him and you shall see the truth for your life.
5) And most importantly LOVE Jesus before any man that walks in your life.
I am so blessed to be able to have an experience like this to learn my five important life lessons. In retrospect, an incredible hard week has made me very blessed. I have an amazing family who love and care about me. I have Jesus who offers me unconditional love. My love story ends with happily ever after….in Heaven. Amen!

Water your face once in awhile.

My eyes water my face every night before bed when I think of you.

I cry when times are tough or simple but no matter what I cry.

I am not ashamed of crying because it is good to let it all out.

I know that I am not alone when I say that crying is an unpleasant feeling.

Let them rain, let them rain

Crying is one of the best ways to show your emotions according to me. There are different kinds of crying. For example, proud crying usually happens when a parent is proud of his or her child. God was proud of Jesus when He took the sin upon Himself and gave up everything for us; sinners. Another type of crying is despondent crying. Despondent crying is when you have a very depressing day. Lately my crying has been that way. There is happy crying which is healthy to do. Sometimes when you laugh too hard it turns into happy crying. And last but not least is crying just to cry. I do this majority of the time. I cry because I am so moved by God that day, or sometimes when I just need to cry about to feel better.
My point is no matter what your reason is to cry. God catches every tear that leaves your eyes. He knows when you are sad or happy or just crying to cry. Though it all He loves you more than we can fully understand. Remember that crying is a good thing.

You and me!

You and me
We have known each other forever
Though we just met.
You and me
Staying up late conversing our stories from the day.
You and me
Cry, laugh and smile together.
You and me
Hold hands through this tough world.
You and me
Live compassionately.
You and me
need each other,
Together forever.
Just you and me.
Forever and ever.

Jesus paid for my cancer!

There is a cancer in all of us. It is something that keeps us from being who God created us to be. We live in a world where we learn nasty habits and then cannot escape them. I have a cancer in my life that I carry on my back all the time. Its name is guilt. It has been defining who I am instead of just being apart of me. Yes, there is a difference. When guilt started to define who I am meant that I am guilt. By being apart of me means I can break away from this guilt that I use to carry. I am glad to tell you that my problem with guilt no longer has taken over my life because through the blood of Christ I am forgiven. I no longer have to carry my cancer around because My Father paid the price for me.

1 John 3:16
“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”

This is my prayer for the readers of my blog:
Dear Father,
I pray for the souls that read this blog. Lord, I pray that their eyes will begin to open to the glory of you. Please help everyone give their cancer to you. Thank you for loving everyone. And most importantly thank you for sending your son to die on the cross for our sins.
Amen!

What is your third world country?

During last June I started my first semester at college. I am very proud of how far I have come. I have gotten into the honors program, got grades, and met some very interesting people. I have had my ups and downs during this past few months. Something that I have done more and more recently is think and pray on what is my mission from God.

I have always been told that I need to serve somewhere far away and in need of help. After talking to God during these last few months I have had a heart aching for Africa. I have cried over this subject matter for a long while. So here is what I have to say...God's plan for me is to get my teaching credentials and then move to Africa where God will help me build a school for those who do not have the amazing opportunity to learn.

Also, I want to tell you that there are cities and towns here in our own countries that need just as much help. People have problems but God can help them every step of the way.

Always remember that we are all HUMAN and need help but through God we can do all things possible.

Matthew 28:19
"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit..."

Here is my prayer for those who read my blog!
Dear Father,
I pray for everyone who took the time to read my blog. Lord, please, just open their eyes to where they are suppose to go. Whether it is China or their hometown, let them serve you in a way that is honorable and gives you praise. Guide their hearts and lead the way. I love you!
Amen!

Love At First Sight!

Today,as many are well aware, that it is Valentine's Day. Yay!Not really. I was totally bummed out the whole entire day. Life lesson #3254 ALWAYS remember what Christ did for you. Instead of soaking into my self pitty I should have been thanking and praising the one who made true love. The best love story in the world is found through Jesus Christ. He was beaten and killed for our sins. Love! I understand why He did it. Our earthly things, a few nails and some wood, killed the one was loving and still is.

If it was not for God giving His son to the world to die on the cross for you and me and the next guy, what would we do in our society. I opened my eyes today, took out the plank of wood, and fixed my eyes on the only true love story. I believe in love... because God gave me just that.

I love Jesus, not just on Valentine's but every single day!

P.S. I hope everything had a great Valentine's day!

<3 love you all!

Flossing!

I have a confession. I always forget to floss. It hurts and is very difficult to remember to do it. I am not talking about flossing my teeth I am talking about spiritually. I cannot remember the last time I spiritually flossed. What is spiritually flossing you may ask. Well to break it down for you it is when a person that follows Christ flosses all the bad out of their life. It takes courage to break out from the crowds and be a purely white for Jesus. We, as followers of Christ, need to floss out the bad. Sometimes it may be difficult to separate from the worldly things but with God anyone can do it. Let’s stand up and take apart of the flossing revolution so we that can help someone else out.

And always remember that God loves you!

Miracles in a lighthouse!

These past few weeks I have been living in a dark tunnel filled with problems and attacks every which way from Satan. I realized something when I was going through this tunnel … everyone has a lighthouse. I know sometimes I repeat myself over and over again but this is a point that needs to be heard. Jesus is my lighthouse. Not only does He provide comfort but He is the light in this dark scary world. I feel so relieved to be back in His arms and I am so happy. I love the fact that His light shines so bright that you can see it from far away…a lighthouse does the same thing. It has been a miracle to be alive and with Him. Not only to have His divine love 24/7 but to have Him walk with you in every situation whether it is good or bad is what my father does for me. He shows me the light in this darkness. Close your eyes for a few minutes and forget about all of your worries then breathe. It feels good to just feel free and relieved. God loves you so much and when you are with Him you can feel that way. He will never leave you nor forsake you. That is why I will be a light for Christ on this earth. I want to share the good news with everyone and I am going to stop hiding it. Just think Jesus is YOUR miracle in a lighthouse!

Matthew 5:15
“"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.”

NEVER AGAIN

I have NEVER cried so much in my whole entire life!
I have NEVER felt so alone in my whole entire life!
I have NEVER been so hurt in my whole entire life.

I feel so unloved lately. This past week has been one of the hardest weeks. It has been full of every emotion in the world. It was filled with rejection and pain that doesn't go away. I just want to be back to normal.

Have you ever had a terrible day? I feel like that all week long.

Jesus went through all types of emotions....and He still made His worst day His best day.

Instead of feeling sorry for myself because of a weeks worth of bad days I need to stand up and thank Jesus. I need to stop making my worst days, my worst days. I am going to make everyday an opportunity to be the BEST day that I have ever lived.

A bad day will no longer bring me down!

Stop questing Him and start thanking Him

Dear Avonlea,
I know that you do not understand what is going on in your life but trust me God has a plan. Someday it will all make sense to you. When the bad times come why do you question Him? Instead of questioning Him, why don't you thank Him. I know it sounds hard to do but He is with you forever and always. You see that Gods love is so divine that He loves you through the good times and the bad ones. You need to trust in God with all your heart, mind and soul. God knows your heart and will guide you through every situation. Thank Him for everything in your life. For He is the one that catches your tears, know how many hairs are on your head and loves you because you are His child. Do not give up and remember to thank Him for everything because without Him you wouldn't have anything.

Love,
Avonlea

You are better than that!

We live in a world where everything is a reality. It is reality when you wake up in the morning and realize that you have to go to work or school or something else that takes up your time. Its reality.

One of the best comments that I have ever heard is when a good friend of mine told me that I am better than that!

Wow. Talk about a slap in the face. It was when I met reality face to face. It was hard to cope with at first but then I started thinking. I am really appreciative that my friend told me this because…

-I am better than the lies that are spoken to me from the world.

-I am better than the troubles that make me stubble.

-I am better than the hurt that endure.

-I am better than the way I look at myself.


See, even though I go through hard times and troubles I can be successful at whatever I do because I am better than that. The only way this became possible was when I realized what I am. Fact I am human but I am also made in Gods image. I am His creation. What an honor it is. I am pleased to tell you that you are the same way, Gods creation. He loves you so much. It is true that we come face to face with reality everyday but remember no matter what it is YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT!