BE BEAUTIFUL! (part 2)

Mirror, mirror on the wall how much weight do I have to lose after all? The mirror can be and is to many a self-confidence crusher. I want to tell you that it does not have to be a judging advice or a hurtful tool. It is all about what you see and the truth.

This week a random occurrence came about when I was at school. I was sitting by myself at a picnic table under the beautiful sky that God created that day. I was patiently waiting for my friends while I was finishing up some homework and eating my lunch before my next class. When a man dressed very professional came up to me I knew change was involved. He told me about this great offer an exercise company has for students at my particular college. It includes a coupon to get yoga classes and facials. I was very silent when I told the man that I was not interested even though I knew I was. I was in denial the rest of the day and continued the argument inside my head. I know that I am neither skinny nor overweight but I feel that I need to lose weight in order to feel good about myself. I constantly hear lies from the world. “Avonlea, please understand that you need to lose weight.” Or “Avonlea, are you serious? Look in the mirror you need to lose that fat around your waist!”

Now here is something everyone needs to hear. God made you perfect in His image. I love that. I know that I am going to have some harsh criticism about myself but ultimately God says I made you perfect. Wow! I do not need to lose weight or get yoga class in order to feel good about myself. I am able to stand in the mirror to declare that God did a perfect job! I know it is hard sometimes to feel beautiful but remember the most beautiful thing in the world is when you recognize His beauty. Now I am confident, beautiful and free.

Remember that God made you perfect in His image. You are BEAUTIFUL!

BE BEAUTIFUL!

What is beauty?

Society tells us that we need to dye our hair, wear makeup, get liposuction, and much more. Is that really how we want to spend our lives? I guess that is a matter of opinion. I believe that society is spreading one of the hugest lies in mankind. It takes away who we are as a person and we live out the lie. Self-image is a tough subject that everyone goes through because we are human. Why do we listen to society? Is it because the makeup makes you feel confident, or is it because our wallets do the talking for our hair upon the enormous amounts of dye? We end up caring so much what think society decides for beauty and destroy the person who we should be.

I want to touch on a heavy subject. Makeup! Every girl imagines waking up in the morning to put on her face. Wrong, this is one of the many lies society tells us. Girls, young ladies, and women of all ages are not accepted if they go the natural look. We get mocked and crushed for not hiding our flaws. Why should we? So what if I have a zit on my chin that looks like Mount Everest or have freckles. I think everyone, no matter who you are, is beautiful. Makeup has become the social norm because of the advertisers and money involved for these big businesses. Let me ask you something would you feel comfortable if all the makeup in the world never existed?

Jesus does not have makeup for He is natural. I will clarify Jesus did not hide anything. He knew what was going to happen and went through everything instead of lying to himself. He defined beauty by stepping out naturally. He did not cover His love for God but did the very opposite He told the world. Unmasked and exposed Jesus took the first step into beauty so let’s take the second and so on.

Remember that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

P.S My little sister made the image. She did an amazing job! Thank you sister! <3

Controlling my emotions!

I smile.
I laugh.
I cry.
I love.
I hurt.
I am human.

Today was an eye opening day for me. It was filled with all the things that I can not do. I have tons of emotions. How to control them? Blogging is my way on communicating my feelings. My feelings get in the way sometimes and that just sucks. I assure you that if you have the same problem, do not worry for Jesus can help you. Through Christ I am able to express myself because He already knows my heart. My emotions are always going to be judge by someone but God will never judge me.

I can smile.
I may laugh.
I will cry.
I try to love.
I do hurt.
I AM human AND God loves me!

Do not change who you are just because someone on this Earth judges you. Remember that in Gods perfect and unconditional love we are perfect for He created us in His image. Love yourself and most importantly love others.

About 6645 days of love!

My mom is not just a mom. She is a friend, a shoulder to cry on, a gift from above, and always there for me. My mom loves me more than anything and sometimes I do not thank her enough. That is why I am blogging about my mom today. By the way Mother’s Day does not have to be once a year. You may ask what makes my mom so much more special than anyone else’s mom. Here is the answer plain and simple; she loves me. It is tough being a mom of six children and knowing all the responsibilities it holds, not an easy job. Out of the 365 days a years, she loves me every single one. I have been a hard child to take care of for the past 19 almost 20 years but she has not ever once loved me less. Her love pours out like a fountain. I love the fact that I can talk to her. When I have a bad day she knows. I do not even have to say anything she just knows me. My mom is a miracle in my life! I am glad God that chose my mom to be mom. He did the very best job and He doesn’t make mistakes. My mom is not just a good mom, but only the best of the best. She did a great job raising me especially when times got tough. The most important thing that I have learned for my mom is life may be hard but God is always holding your hand through it. Thank you for mom! You work so hard for me even when I do not deserve it.

I love you always and forever!!!!!!!

My life has been like a staircase lately. I go up and down depending on my situation. I usually on a good day take about three steps up and then the next day about four steps down. Everything stresses me out. Spiritually I am not doing so well. I thought I was until my battle came. Sin is such a huge part of my life. It causes me to fail down the stairs of life. My life has been a terrible mess these past few weeks. Instead of sitting here doing nothing about I NEED to reach out to God.

Three goals to better my situation!
1) Be in constant communication with God.
-God wants you to tell Him EVERYTHING. It makes His day when you tell Him what happened during the day.
2) Be willing and accepting of every situation.
-Easier said than done most of the time. Point in case, life throws some rotten things at you when you least expect it. Be sure to praise God for the day and the situation that you are in. He will hold your hand through it.
3) Believe that God is bigger than any problem we have.
-God is in control. If we all took time out of our days to remind ourselves how big God is; I think we will live a healthier and more positive life. Stop stressing about the smallest problems just breath and give it to God. He will handle it and most importantly will never forsake you.

Remember that your life does not have to be a staircase. Think of life as a giraffe. You will be tall enough to reach Heaven and only going up. No more downs in life. Thank you Jesus for my beautiful life!

Something is NEVER nothing!

I need to tell you something,
but I cannot tell you today.
For I am too scared.
Just remember that
I need to tell you something.

I need to tell you something,
but you need to listen.
Just remember that
I need to tell you something.

"You're my best friend
and sometimes the only one.
I do not want to lose you
I can not let you go
because you're my
very best friend."

I need to tell you something
hope you're ready.

"I love you my best friend!"

For a friend...

I am praying for a friend
Who will be there ‘til thee end
Someone to talk to in the middle of night
When I just had a fight
I am praying for a friend.

I am waiting for a friend
Who will love me ‘til thee end
Someone to smile at
And we live by that
I am waiting for a friend

I am wishing for a friend
Who will care for me ‘til thee end
Someone who dances in the rain
And knows how to keep me sane
I am wishing for a friend.

I am missing you my friend
For I cannot wait ‘til we met again
Come back someday
Because I wishing you would stay
I am missing you my friend.

I want a friend
Who will stay ‘til thee end
I know you will come back
For the world gets attack
You will be here ‘til thee end
Thank you my friend!

An undeserving love story!

About a week ago, I got really emotional distressed. I thought my world was falling apart beneath my feet. I could not contain my tears and my family did not see me smile for a long time. Let me tell you what had happened in my life. On February 25th, 2010 I got "dumped" and kicked to the curb at least that is what it felt like. I was dating someone who I thought could complete the love story that I had in mind for my life. Boy, I was wrong. I will be open and honest here. I thought I was in "love" with a guy that took my heart from the very first time I laid eyes on him. We went on one date but that date was suppose to determine our future together. It did alright. If my parents are reading this I want to apologize in advance for not telling you everything. I feel really guilty about it. We kissed and I was glad he was my first kiss. He treated me with nothing but with respect for the next few weeks. I had some things going on in my life and he was there holding my hand through it. I once doubted that fairy tales really existed until I met the man of my dreams. We were really close and I am disappointed in myself for not continuing our closeness. I continue to ask God for a reason to this madness and I got the perfect answer. That is NOT my love story.

Here is my love story that God wrote for me. It does not start out with once upon a time but it is a true story that has changed the lives of others all across the world. It starts in a place known as Bethlehem where a virgin gave birth to my love story, Jesus. While He was on this earth, He was hated by many and they wanted Him dead. Jesus knew exactly what was going to happen but He did it anyways for me and you. That's right. Jesus carried a cross for miles and miles to go to a hill where death was written all over it. He loved us so much that He was mocked, put to shame, and took our sins as a sacrifice. My love story is beautiful, filled with compassion and love but most of all a gift from above. I love Jesus! He knows my heart and everything about me. Jesus is my love story!
Through the last week or so I have learned a few very important lessons with my current situation.
1) I need to tell my parents everything. I feel awful about not sharing this with my parents first. I am sorry!
2) Do not take a situation for granted. Praise Jesus for giving you another day to live.
3) Jesus will forever be my love story.
4) No matter what happens in this world, remember that a guy does not determine who you are. God already knows your heart. Trust in Him and you shall see the truth for your life.
5) And most importantly LOVE Jesus before any man that walks in your life.
I am so blessed to be able to have an experience like this to learn my five important life lessons. In retrospect, an incredible hard week has made me very blessed. I have an amazing family who love and care about me. I have Jesus who offers me unconditional love. My love story ends with happily ever after….in Heaven. Amen!

Water your face once in awhile.

My eyes water my face every night before bed when I think of you.

I cry when times are tough or simple but no matter what I cry.

I am not ashamed of crying because it is good to let it all out.

I know that I am not alone when I say that crying is an unpleasant feeling.

Let them rain, let them rain

Crying is one of the best ways to show your emotions according to me. There are different kinds of crying. For example, proud crying usually happens when a parent is proud of his or her child. God was proud of Jesus when He took the sin upon Himself and gave up everything for us; sinners. Another type of crying is despondent crying. Despondent crying is when you have a very depressing day. Lately my crying has been that way. There is happy crying which is healthy to do. Sometimes when you laugh too hard it turns into happy crying. And last but not least is crying just to cry. I do this majority of the time. I cry because I am so moved by God that day, or sometimes when I just need to cry about to feel better.
My point is no matter what your reason is to cry. God catches every tear that leaves your eyes. He knows when you are sad or happy or just crying to cry. Though it all He loves you more than we can fully understand. Remember that crying is a good thing.

You and me!

You and me
We have known each other forever
Though we just met.
You and me
Staying up late conversing our stories from the day.
You and me
Cry, laugh and smile together.
You and me
Hold hands through this tough world.
You and me
Live compassionately.
You and me
need each other,
Together forever.
Just you and me.
Forever and ever.

Jesus paid for my cancer!

There is a cancer in all of us. It is something that keeps us from being who God created us to be. We live in a world where we learn nasty habits and then cannot escape them. I have a cancer in my life that I carry on my back all the time. Its name is guilt. It has been defining who I am instead of just being apart of me. Yes, there is a difference. When guilt started to define who I am meant that I am guilt. By being apart of me means I can break away from this guilt that I use to carry. I am glad to tell you that my problem with guilt no longer has taken over my life because through the blood of Christ I am forgiven. I no longer have to carry my cancer around because My Father paid the price for me.

1 John 3:16
“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”

This is my prayer for the readers of my blog:
Dear Father,
I pray for the souls that read this blog. Lord, I pray that their eyes will begin to open to the glory of you. Please help everyone give their cancer to you. Thank you for loving everyone. And most importantly thank you for sending your son to die on the cross for our sins.
Amen!